Beyond sorry for the ages its been since last visits.
New manager!
..new rules; new hours; new expectations..
More fun & good times though.
Miss You Still though MM(L)
Always be my manager hehe .
Still do little things i know you would do if you were here .
Caity misses you most though.
She actually hates our new girly.

But this is NOT a letter to my old boss-o.
Its sorries & updates.

Im doing so much better with the whole like; angry at the friend thing.
I was actually like heartbroken & greiving but I've realized that I let myself get trampled for months & then i was acting retarded about it afterwards like I didnt see it coming. Durr. Should have. I miss him still i mean we were like tighter than life but like. Geeze bud.

Do I always say like that much ??

Haha.
But i must run
What a short update...
More soon
Love.

Here's a letter to a person I used to love  wish i could still love unconditionally. 

Dear Mr. Nameless Foryourprotection,

I used to count on waking up or falling asleep to your text meaasges. I used to rely on you to keep me going through the day. You were my reason to wake up in the morning and the reason I found it easy to fall asleep at night. I could count on the fact that I'd be smiling today, because I know he loves me. I gave you my all and for the most part got your all in return. I loved you feverishly. You were my everything.

I counted on you when i was down. I knew i always had someone to lean on, regardless of how big or small the circumstance was. I knew you wouldn't care what i had done to create or come across the problem, just that I was, by the end of our conversation, smiling again. I trusted you with every detail of my life; guilty pleasures, hates and loves, lies and otherwise. You were like a diary that could respond and help me with the troubles i entrusted you with. You were brilliant.

It was YOUR idea to try things out. It wasn't mine. Both of us could feel it granted, but I had told you it didnt bother me if we didnt act on it because we were both nervous we could lose it all . and YOU were the one who kissed me. And then 2 years in, YOU were the one to tell me that YOU could never really handle it, and that YOU were scared. And then YOU left. Notice how all the major events invlove you? And yet you blame me? YOU were the one who couldnt keep it together. And YOU were the one who promised we would awlays be close. That was all you baby.

...and YOU were the one who broke that promise.

Now i dont count on you contacting me. For weeks at a time. I cant rely on you to get me through the day because its days on end we go now without talking. I was always good to you; and you always told me it was NEVER my fault. And i believed you.

Thats my problem though. I believed you. Everything you said. You oculd do no wrong in my eyes but it was obvious the lies you fed me. And i caught you in them. Numerous times but believed better of you. I saw a good people told me was never there and i let you take chance after chance. I made sure it was me who was hurt and not you by your lies and let you continuosly sweet talk me into letting you back in my life again. and again. and again..

I can't let you do that again.
But im afraid.
Im afraid that if i let go i will miss that good i see in you coming out and someone else will take it up and cherish it. Im afraid to hate you because I love you so much. I cant let go of you.

So I will be here when you need me. But only then. We wont have our stupid little conversations every night anymore. I wont tell you i love you. I wont tell you anything about my life, but i will be there to help you with yours.

I want to see that good in you come out.
Please baby, im begging you.
Help me let go of you.

Sincerely;
Never the fallen